Archive for June, 2009

Community of Sisters

Tuesday, June 30th, 2009

 

Okay, so you probably have figured out that there are two of us.  Colleen is Colleen, and I’m me.  Marian, that is.  Back in 1969 (in a previous life time)  we met in our freshman year of high school.  It was a little disorienting, but ever since we have had the feeling of not being alone during whatever trials and tribulations have come our way.  That is what I meant when I spoke of a large community of “sisters”.  They are biologically connected, or come into our lives through marriages.  If we are lucky they stand solidly with, as mine do.  We learn that we can depend on them.  Whether we need help with our children, or a sounding board in our relationships with our husbands or lovers.  I know that I consider myself as being blessed with my relationships in this respect.  The men in our live’s are very important, but for many of us we only really let our “hair down” when communicating with sisters.  It’s a common phenomenon, relying on one another for validation.

 

But there are things I need to get done. The house is quiet and I’m the only one still awake.  As tired as I am, I’ll get a few things done first before going to bed myself.  Houses have a different quality in the night time.   Sounds are muted and what sound there is has an almost velvet like feel to it. 

 

And so I say goodnight, and best wishes to anyone who is reading this.  It’s time for a deep breath and a descent into sleep. Morning will be here soon.  Good wishes and be well.

Menopause, Computers and TV’s — Oh my

Friday, June 26th, 2009

 

Menopause brain.  A form of CRS. (can’t remember shit).  Making lists so as not to forget what it is I’m doing.  Promptly lose lists and wander aimlessly.  I know I should be doing something, but damned if I know WHAT.

 

 

Whenever “they” show a working computer screen on TV, it seems to have interference.  Looks like the rolling of a TV picture.  Does anyone out there know why?

 

Whose legs did I shave last night, anyway? Couldn’t have been mine.

Doctors

Tuesday, June 23rd, 2009

 

The older one gets, the more frequently we see them.  I do not see this as a good trend.  In mulling over the topic I have come to the following realization:  DOCTORS ARE THE LEADING CAUSE OF HOSPITALIZATION.  That being said, I have to admit my “regular” doctor is truly a nice man.  He’s pleasant and thorough and genuinely compassionate.  He obviously believes that if he finds the right words and says them in the proper order he’ll “get through” to me..  But the sad truth is that whenever I’m sitting on crinkly sounding paper all I can think of is getting off crinkly sounding paper.  Then he pulls out that small blue pad of his and I wonder if he has any idea I’m seriously contemplating relocating it where, as they say, the sun don’t shine.  Which leads me to the topic of colonoscopy.  And none of us wants to go there………………..

 

Big brother

Friday, June 19th, 2009

Lost my brother recently.  Sounds terribly careless of me, doesn’t it?  We were all so grateful when he came back from Viet Nam in one piece. Little did we know at the time that he did die in Viet Nam.  Came stateside to finish the process. It took 40 years.  God bless and keep you, big brother.

Role Model, Me?

Tuesday, June 16th, 2009

Standing at the supermarket, and the lady behind me keeps bumping me with her cart. Just once I’d like to shove it back, and send her careening into the diet soda aisle. On some days I really believe it would be worth the orange jumpsuit.

Am I the only one terrified to realize that I’m supposed to be a role model for my children? It’s one of the reasons my best friend will always be my best friend. She knows WAY too much.

Hello world!

Saturday, June 13th, 2009

Well, here I am.  Apparently I’m bloggging.  Blogging sounds to me like something I wouldn’t want my Mom to catch me doing.  But I’m a middle aged orphan so that’s not a problem.  That’s a term I have a problem with - “middle aged”.  I’m 54.  For me to be truly middle aged, I’d have to live to be 108.  God forbid!

But, here I sit.  Running off at the fingers instead of the mouth.  Trying to figure out how I’ve managed to get into my mid-fifties without any idea of what I want to do when I grow up.  One thing I do know is that “sisters” have kept me (relatively) sane on the journey.  They come into one’s life along the way.  And if we’re smart, we hold them close.  More on this another day.

So this is a chronicle of this stage of life.  As seen through my eyes.  Which, incidentally, have cataracts.  What’s with that, anyway?  I was first diagnosed when I was 52.  God’s little way of saying “ha-ha”, I guess.  I’ve always pictured Him as having a sense of humor.  So along with the cataracts I’m supposed to be rather young to have, go regular periods which I’m supposed to be too old to have.  Go figure.

Time to go and get some stuff done.  That is, if I can recall what it is I need to do.  Another joy of middle age, where things pop out of one’s head just as quickly as they pop in.  ‘Bye for now.